Dearest Buzz,
You start a new school today. Because no one wanted to listen to me.
It’s not my choice. I would have preferred you stay at the school you’ve known, with your brother by your side, at least until the end of this, your first, school year. Your progress there has been amazing, surpassing my expectations. They taught you how to write your name, and beginning words. You know your letters and can count to 100, though you skip a lot along the way. It’s the little things that most your age have known how to do for awhile but you’ve struggled with. And now you’re learning. Not just learning, but loving.
In switching schools after you’ve just begun to feel comfortable, I’m afraid that will change.
I also know, however, how you’ve surprised me in the past. You manage to work in mysterious ways. You’ve taken actions in stride after I’ve already braced against the aftermath. You rise and you fight, even when your fear is palpable. I left you crying mercilessly on the very first day of school, I’m terrified I’m going to leave you the same again. It breaks my heart to do this to you twice.
But you are strong. And you are bright. And you’re going to do wonderful. I know change is hard to understand, but I’m trying to do what’s best for you, even when it’s not my favorite choice.
Although if you want to raise hell just for the first few days, you have my support. I’d kind of like to say I told you so.
With so much love,
Your Mom
Saw your tweet – sounds like it went well. These are the toughest things – to make them do things that are scary or they might not enjoy. Parenting – gotta love it.
@Cathy, Parenting is bullshit, in the best way possible? But this one, he keeps me on my toes. Every time I expect the worst, he surprises me.
I’m behind on the back story, but hugs for all of you.
xo
I hope all went well with Buzz’s new school 🙂
@Angella, Thank you. Long story short, he was recently diagnosed with autism and the school he had been going to doesn’t have a special education class for him.
This hits close to home for me. My daughter has had an awful school year and I am to the point that I think a big change needs to be made. I wish I could leave her where she’s at, but it just isn’t working. She is stressed out and failing two subjects. But her tutor tells me how bright she is. UGh. Sometimes parenting is just hard! Good luck to you and I hope everything turns out for the better.
Kids are amazing in their ability to bounce. No matter what happens at this school, it’s not permanent. If it totally sucks, you’ll find something even better. Good luck!
Kids are completely malleable. And I have faith that Buzz will persevere. Just like his Momma. xoxo